(March 29, 2015) Day- 145

-2:30 Am

I know that, I haven’t written in here for like 5 days and I should keep track of everything, I am going though even, its few words but, I been like not in the mood to write / depressed cus, This broken leg/foot, Its getting me down and I truly don’t have anyone who understand what, i am going though or willing to listen but, I have is people who is sick and tired of me talking about it.

I wish, i could do so much more then, I am able to do. Its really holding me back and setting me down in a depressed mood. I can jog/little run but it hurts a lot in the end. I am mostly on this PC or TV, xbox360, cell phone. I miss going out when its nice but, my leg makes so hard and I go out when I have too. I am always eating and so many snacks and I shouldn’t be eating this much. 

-8:00 Am

Waking up i never feeling good to me. I hate waking up,My foot/leg still hurts.
I have one to that fully understands what, it feel like having broken leg/foot. I mean, it’s something that’s on my mind and can’t get rid of.
Just to enjoy a nice walk in the warm sunny air is a workout for me.
Just walking like a 0.5 mile makes me a sweat.
I so hate it right now.Sad that the only truly sun I get is though this window. I can go out walk in the sun by all alone means nothing.  

 

-7:05 Pm  I am so tired of my life right now. 

(March 24, 2015) Day- 140

Today was hard. I ate a lot and it was too much.We went to the fittness room. I didn’t do a lot of work. It was the steping press type thing that hurts when I do it. I only can do 6 mins. That’s sucks.

   

• I started at 60 mins   

The wife and daughter came and I felt bad that I could do what I need to do to be happy. I felt like crying. 

    My beautiful daughter makes me happy and loved. Me and her drinking coffee together. 

  

• My wife and daughter working out together

(March 21, 2015) Day- 137

Today I have been lay down and haven’t been feeling too good. I don’t know why that my leg hurts. It could be me walking on it with out my cane. Well dad didn show up cud he changed the date again. I am so tired of him doing that and he seems he never happy to see me or spend time with me. I wish I could never need him and so I could leave him alone. 

 Anyway, my leg been hurting and need a some rest. I have been craving food and it sucks that I just want to alway want to eat. I’m so unhappy and depressed. It just won’t go away. I hate this. Here a photos of how my foot been looking for past few days. 

  

(March 17, 2015) Day- 133

I have done a lot today.
My wife woke up not feeling to well, so I took care of our 11 yr old. Made her breakfast and all and just relaxed for an hour cus she had time. When, time to go I took her to the bus stop and waited for the bus to come then went back in.

I set up home work when she gets home and when, she came home. She was in a good mood. Walking to the bus hurt little but waking up today hurt bad. I hate waking up and feeling my swollen foot.

 She did the home work and we read together. It made me so happy and made me feel like I’m being a father.

(March 14, 2015) Day- 130

I did a lot today. I spent time with my dad and son. We to chipolata and they, had couple dog up front and the kids loved it. My baby-girl is always loved pets and Its a good thing.

I stopped at At&t to see about the phone but, wasn’t going to get one cus, I have t mobile. I had to give up my Lg G3 phone cus, I hate when my phone dies too fast. Like, I have a phone that last not die on me when, I need it. Its not as bad as the HTC One. That died only for 4 Hours use.

Daad likes walking around when, we go out and I missing doing it too. My Broken leg sucks. To me it’s still broken even, its healing. I still can’t do things like, I want too.  We had to do our monthly shopping today and we did do it but, it took few trips. My dad took us the first time.

We had to wait for someone to come and buy my Broken HTC One that, got broken when, I got hit. He did came and we went to Mc d’s and it took a while but, got their like 30 mins and it was only like 0.5 mile. I feel bad about it.

I ate way more then,  I should. I feel so ashamed of my self. I ate a Big Mac large fries and a sweet tea. I also had a  frappe caramel not, just one but two. My wife couldn’t finish her so, I didn’t want to waste money so, I drank her’s too. I feel so bad. Grrrrrrrr

We went back to Giant Foods so, we could get more stuff and got what we needed. I carried two bag while, the other were carried by the rest of the family.

  It took like 40 mins to get back home and it sucks. it felt like it. I just had to change into something better and then take a shower. It sucked and Im glad, I am better now. Another day of my boring life.

(March 11, 2015) Day- 127

I Have been doing a lot during these two days.
I had to walk a mI le to the bus stop so, I could go get some glasses with the family.
My wife was so nice that, She walked with me to the bus stop and back. I makes me feel loved when she does.
My legs on my broken bone hurt when, I was almost home. It felt like my bones had rust in them and I couldn’t walk. 

(March 8, 2015) Day- 124

 

6:02Pm

I just bent down to look for something and it felt really bad and like it was splitting apart. What the going on. I can’t stand it.

(March 7, 2015) Day- 123

 

2:02Pm

I just got out of bath and feel little better and shaved. My leg was really red. I must have used very hot water.

(March 5, 2015) Day- 121

 

11:39Pm

I have been mostly watching
Chuck. Mostly all day and playing last croft on my Xbox 360 slim. My knee been hurting bad. It really hurts when I get up and walk. Man, it feel not better then yesterday.
It really snowed today and man, I miss the sun being

(March 4, 2015) Day- 120 ( 4 Months)

2:29Am
I'm still up and can't sleep or awake and tired. I am so tired of my leg hurting and people don't want me to talk about or express what I'm feeling even its over and over. I took my compress sock off and its going to hurt so, I could sleep . I still need to sleep a pillow under my foot.

10:00Pm

I did a lot of walking today. I did like 2 miles and it was too much for me to do. I went to my daughter dentist appointment. Walking to the dentist appointment. even, walking down hill was too much for me. I was so tired while waiting for her. I even, fell sleep. I did get some sleep. Maybe like, 5 mins but, that it. I had to stay awake cus, the wife had to do few things and I stayed their but she came back before she was out.  We went to DDNuts and had a time. I got a ice cream. It was nice. I needed to get out.

DDNuts

I went to my physical therapy around 6pm. I did some work but it was new and I wish I could do it at home. It would be sweet to do it so, I can get my foot stronger again.I couldn't even walk less then a mile and I hate it. My knee been hurting since the walk.so, I hope it feel better soon.

Where the arrows are pointing is where the pain I feel.this sucks.

(Feb 28, 2015) Day-116

I had a so-so day today.
Went out and it was ok but, mostly, I felt tired.
I wish that i wasn't tired all the time and then, I can
t walk at night and don't do anything during the day.
I stay up during the night. I hate this.

I had to walk 0.6 miles and then 6 sets of stairs.
man, i was so tired and I just want to stand their cus, I was that tired. I felt like, my ankle going to break again how, tired i w

(Feb. 27 2015) Day 115

(Morning)

I really hate waking up feeling like this.

I didn't get much sleep, I went to sleep around 4am got up at 8:30am. I hate my whole leg and knee really hurting Its so stops my sleep. With my whole knee thing, It itches in the bone. I can't scratch it. AHHHHHH.

I need to wear a compression sock like, all time so, it feels better. I hate that, this broken foot really stopping me from doing this in my life. I need to give my foot a rest. Its just pain the in butt. I will write more later.

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(After-Noon)

I did a lot of walking today.

Walked like, more then a mile cus, i can feel it in my body, I truly dont want to walk. I had to walk down 3 sets of stairs and walk to the main office of our apartment. Walking to the office and back was a lot of work and then I when back up the 3 sets of stairs. I had like 20mins or so to get my daughter from the bus. 

She so sweet, she blew me a kiss when she saw me from the the window when the bus pulling up and gave me one when she got out. Then went back up the stairs again.

Now that's would be 6x4=24 sets of stairs but, I wasn't done. We ate before we left to go somewhere. Anyway, walking up the stairs hurt. 

(Night)

We went to Wal-mart by the area I got hit.Wife had few things to do their and I went for the ride. Got home and that's would be the last time of the night going up the stairs. Now that would make it, 6x6=36. I did 36 sets of stairs and when I got to the top. I truly didn't want to walk no more. That hurt, my knee hurt really bad and I couldn't stand it and I needed meds and sit down for a while. 

(Feb. 22, 2015) Day- 110

I woke up and I felt like, crap and I need to sleep in all day so, the pain from walking yesterday. I got up around 3pm. I think.
I only think I needed a lot of sleep cus I did a lot of walking he pain in my leg from the walking and swelling made me need to sleep. That's all I can write

(Feb. 21,2015) Day- 109

I brought, my oldest Daughter to the Greyhound. The whole family came cus, we wanted to say good buy for a while, We will be missing her.
The snow came real fast but we were eating so, it was like a shock when we saw it. It was a very nice family time. We got home and it was bad. I took some photos but, not as good as I like.
Anyway while, we were eating. I didn't use my cane to go get food cus I wouldn't be able to get the food but in the end it hurt my leg and I needed a rest.

(Feb. 19, 2015) Day- 106

I went to my orthopedist to see a check in. It went well. It's mostly healed and I'm glad and while, I was their. He looked at my foot x-ray and did see it was broken. It was way more broken then I thought.
It was on the middle of the foot and not by the toes. I can feel it where its broken and that's what's making me harder to walk. I can't wait for it to fully heal and I also hope that, I can loss my fat that, I'm gaining from not walking and always eating. I am mostly craving sweet like candy bars or protein. It was nice to get out for a while. A nice guy from my doctors where I used to go to help with my foot to heal took me their. I'm thankful that he took me. Here is a x-ray of my photo of my bone from today till getting the rod.

(Feb. 17, 2015) Day- 105

   I say, it haven't been a good day today for me. I woke up in pain and I hate when, i do that. I am mostly 75% in pain. Like, last night it drained me even, the wife saw me in pain and gave me some meds but, it made me more tired.

Had fun with the kids, we played on the Wii and I wish, i didn't feel like this so, i can do way more with them.

We went to the fitness room but, i really couldn't do anything cus, the walk their was too much anyway. It was a lot of work.

I have a lot on.

(Feb. 12, 2015) Day- 100

Today is my 100 day from being hit. 
I haven't done anything but clean the kitchen and watch tv. My foot and leg hurt tonight. It could be the old.

(Feb. 11, 2015) Day- 99

I went to see a lawyer and I hope they can help. Dad took me their. I showed them where I got hit and it was Sams Club parking lot. I don't feel safe anymore after that.
On the way home, I was about to cry cus, I had flash backs from being hit.. Sorry post is small.

(Feb. 7, 2015) Day-95

I went to to my physical therapy.

Wife and the kids came with me and it was nice.

Dad had to go someone where else.

He always leaves and does something.

It would be nice if he spent time with me doing things with me then, leave.

I am do like our one and one time when i do get it.

I will post photos at the end of the post and they are by, my wonderful wife

Since, I went to McDonald's.

My foot and ankle been really hurting.

I need to go back to wheel chair and crutches for a while till, I get better.

We Went to chick-fil-a in owings mills and it was busy.

O glad their was a place for use to sit.

I foot started to hurt with the little move mostly from side to side.

After that, We went to Sam's Club by where, I got hit at.

I hate going by their and just remembering what happened by,

go by the area that, I was hit at.

I had to walk in and that took like 10 mins while my foot really hurt.

It felt like I broke my bone again by, the walk.

I took a cart to help but, it didn't help at all cus, i want pushing weight on my left leg.

Got few things while their saw, a lot things I wish i could get.

So, After that went to Home Depot

They did have a scooter that, I could right in but, by then

From, walking at sam's club really hurt my foot.

Got few things their and looked at the plants.

I crave to buy a lot plants but, I can't.

(Feeling Sad)

Just went on the way home.

I remembered that, I left my glasses their and they were taken.

Why would someone take someone Glasses

Home it was after their. I am glad. and took some rest.

I can't wait for it to really heal back like, it used too so, I can walk.

(Feb. 5th, 2015) Day- 93

Morning & Noon -

I had a nice time out with wife.

We only went to McDonald's

To get a Frap.

I also got a soda.

We spent their for like 2 hours before heading home.

It took me like aa while to get their

Also, it took longer to get back.

My foot and ankle hurt really back.

It still hurts and I can't walk on it at all.

Anyway, When I was almost home.

I was crossing a streat.

I had a flash back of me being hit.

It came out of no where.

What The Hell

I dont know why but, It hit me hard

I almost cried and it was very hard to hold it back,

I will tell more about my day later.

(Feb. 4th, 2015) Day- 92

Its only 20 mins until, it's midnight and a new day. I having so much pain in my foot that I just with I could cut off my foot and be done with it. I hate every time I take a step. My whole foot and ankle hurt and I don't want to really move.. I have been in bed rest and going to the kitchen or bathroom even its 5 feet it's in great pain. I really think something. Really wrong with my foot. I know why my ankle cus the main brake when the dumb ass lady hit me and I believe she wasn't even looking. I was almost in the half way in the street when she it me. That bitch. I am tired of feeling my foot being swollen or ugly dark looking. I am always need to take pain pills. I am getting lazy cus, taking a shower is pain in the ass. I am only taking baths and I did shower here and their but it's hard. I forgot the last time I took a bath. Let me check on my app.

It was 2 days ago and I need it but I so not in the work to do it. I need my wheel chair or someone to help me out cus I am not strong to stand and get my self out while not to slip. I hate my self right now cus, I am always in need for someone to take care of me or do something. I would get though this with out my wonderful wife.
She has done so much that I made me grow closer to her. She had to wash me when I couldn't and get me out then dress me when it was just start of my journey of this hard ship. I wish I could do something that would take her breath away to show her that I love her. If I need to write more, it will be on a new day when it's only 10 mins let till, it's tomorrow.

(Feb. 2st, 2015) Day- 90

Every Since, I have been walking with a cane. My feet really hurting and I believe that, I am not ready to walk with a cane yet. I have been doing more walking and I am glad that, I have been. I went to the fitness room today at the apartment office. I rode on the stay still bike for 15 mins and I did 4 Miles. I am glad I will post them on a new page. I need to do something uplifting or I will fall back down in my depression. I hate being like that, I know that, I will go back their in my own darkness cus, My bipolar.

I took a 15 sec. Video and I am glad that, I can ride again cus, I am so sad when I only lay in bed and hardly do anything. I need to do it every day and try to do it more then 15 mins. Its worth it. I hate that i need to walk now cus, it hurt bad to step on my foot like something broken inside my foot that, making me not really able to walk. It swells so bad that, the sock tries to stay on. Ouch. I got some photos that i am going to post next. Thanks for who reading this. Mostly no one reads this blog.

(Jan. 30, 2015) Day- 87

Having felt this bad for a while now.
I am taking a bath cus, my foot swelled up.

Photo 1

Photo 2

Even this morning my leg and foot hurt and I took some oxycodone. I felt like crap. I took my. Youngest daughter to get bus and back.I needed to wait for like 15 mind each time and man, it was cold.

Wife made me dinner while I was waiting for the bus.so sweet and that why I love her. I mostly watched movies and did some cleaning.
It hurt bad but, I did it.

(Jan. 28, 2015) Day- 85

I'm home from Physical therapy. I did my leg and foot exercise. It took me a while to get home and I was home around 8pm. When I was leaving one of their physician assistant.. He really nice.
What I did today was, took my baby girl to the bus and picked her up and did some house cleaning, repotted my plants. Watched lost girl with my wife before she went to her dentist for get her tooth pulled. I know her mouth hurts and I hope she feels better soon.
Here my feet been looking lately.

Almost their

I can stand up and walk for a bit till my feet start to hurt.

(Jan. 24, 2015) Day- 81

Dad had to do things when he was to be here.
He was to be here at 10am but shows up at 2pm.
We went to popeyes.
Had a nice time.
Paul and jasmine played.

I enjoyed few small cups of coke.
I miss coke…
Even after I ate.
I was still hungry.
What the hell.
I was tired.
By me walking with the crutches.
It's a lot of work.

Then we went to westminster
Walk in for a bit.
Paul got a new pair of glasses

After that. .

Went to walmart
Got what I needed.
Thanks to dad.

Went home but,  before leaving walmart.
Got a beautiful sunset.

I love it.
Dad wasn't talking much.
I don't like it when he like that.

Done for the night

(Jan. 18th, 2015) -Day 75

I was mostly up on my feet or foot down.
It really hurts in the long run.
I walk to the office and had a cup of coffee and walked home.
I took a bath to help with the pain but my foot didnt look any different.

(Jan. 17th, 2015) -Day 74

At my Physical therapy.
Did a lot of work.
Learned how to put 50% of my body weight on my left side.
Did some leg ball workout.
Also learned put to use one crutch and that was scary.
I felt like I was about to cry of the fear.
I hate myself that I cry so easy even little stupid things.

-Later- 
Went with family out to eat
Geoffrey was at the appeasement.
He dropped off something I asked for.
We went to chipotle.
I ate all the food and had a nice time.
I was getting tired from the pain in my leg/foot.
Kids had fun and wife was taking photos.

(Jan. 13th, 2015) -Day 70 (Mc D's)

I went out with the wife.
It was fun even it was mostly food shopping.
First, we went to McDonald.
There food was so old.
Even they're bread taste old.
Went shopping at giant foods.

We're their like for 2 hours but, got home before kid got home.

When, I was cleaning the kitchen.
Wife made us some pizza.
It taste good even, cheap pizza.

I took of my slippers and socks cus my foot hurt cus it's swollen and I knew it by how it felt.
I laid down and wife rubbed my foot.
She so sweet.

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Foot photo

(Jan. 11th, 2015) -Day 68

Today-
I got up late and didn't feel like it.
I did anyway.
Mostly cus the wife wanted me up.
I don't know why I felt the way I did when I got up. I felt like, my whole body was heavy and my eyes were too.
It was like around 11am I think.
Don't remember.

I did a lot of work even, it was not for a normal person. I don't know but, I did the dishes like, wash by hand (not easy to stand with just one foot). One time, I cried while I was doing it. I'm not a light person. I wiped the counters, sweep the floor, cleaned the stove burners thingys. That takes a lot of work to do while standing.

People who say that being in a wheelchair is easy. It's not, I have even lost weight

I went to lay down on the couch to relax and I found my self sleep by, my sweet 11 year old daughter covering with my doctor who blanket. But, before I went to sleep. I had a pb&j. When my princess woke me up. I just went back to sleep and just felt like sec's my wife was up front of me, rubbing my face and forcing my eyes to open to look at her. Feeling like my eyes making me to close them and I looked at her and she asked me if I wanted something to eat. I said not right now. I'm too tired to be hungry. She told me to let her know so she can order food. I look at the time it's was 5:30pm. I forced my self up an rubbed my eyes to get rid of the dreadful weight off of my eyes. I just went to the bed and sat up watched a movie while she order food.

Felt better after the long nap.
That's for today.

(Jan. 10th, 2015) -Day 67

-1:17Pm
I just want to go bed.
Getting dressed and getting ready.
We are heading out to do few things and getting some food.
I hate being like this

Not able to do things I want to do

-2:15pm
Just came from best buy and wheel my self around the store and I am so more tired.
Chilling at chick-fil-a while the wife and dad getting food.

-7:58Pm
Just finishing dinner
Even it was only a chicken sandwich.
Wife cooked it. I'm glad that I have her.
Laying in bed cus, my foot is swollen by me having done for hours.
I just can't wait to be able to walk with out crotches.

Here my feet.

Swollen foot

Ps.. It can see the difference.

-10:34Pm
I see that I have a lot to write about today. I tried to take a shower but the chair that I could put in the bathrobe was too big. So, it's a bath. 😥. I miss showers.

(Jan. 8th, 2015) Day- 65

-10:13am
I got up to make something for my wife to eat. While I was in the kitchen cooking. My foot turn purple while I was just sitting in my wheel chair. What's going on?

-i went to sleep and I didn't feel good. My leg was hot and it wouldn't let me sleep. Why!

(Jan. 5th, 2015) Day- 62

2 Months and 1 Day

Today, when i woke up by daughter excited that she is going back to school. I am glad that she loves school. That wont last much longer. lol. Anyway, My knee really hurt also my ankle/foot. I really don't know why every time, I wake up feeling a lot of pain.

I took a pill of aleve and it didn't do anything really. I went to sleep at 5Am and gotten woke up at 8Am.

I did the dishes and i was standing while, I was doing it. It to ok a lot of me. It take a lot of strength to stand their with one foot. I lay down and I fell sleep and I didn't mean to. I must slept for 20 mins and I felt fatigued. It must took more then, I thought it did.

(Jan. 1, 2015) -Days 58 ( New Years - 2015 )

Today is the new day for the year. Nothing happened during today but, stayed in bed and watch fringe. Man, I love this show