(March 29, 2015) Day- 145

-2:30 Am

I know that, I haven’t written in here for like 5 days and I should keep track of everything, I am going though even, its few words but, I been like not in the mood to write / depressed cus, This broken leg/foot, Its getting me down and I truly don’t have anyone who understand what, i am going though or willing to listen but, I have is people who is sick and tired of me talking about it.

I wish, i could do so much more then, I am able to do. Its really holding me back and setting me down in a depressed mood. I can jog/little run but it hurts a lot in the end. I am mostly on this PC or TV, xbox360, cell phone. I miss going out when its nice but, my leg makes so hard and I go out when I have too. I am always eating and so many snacks and I shouldn’t be eating this much. 

-8:00 Am

Waking up i never feeling good to me. I hate waking up,My foot/leg still hurts.
I have one to that fully understands what, it feel like having broken leg/foot. I mean, it’s something that’s on my mind and can’t get rid of.
Just to enjoy a nice walk in the warm sunny air is a workout for me.
Just walking like a 0.5 mile makes me a sweat.
I so hate it right now.Sad that the only truly sun I get is though this window. I can go out walk in the sun by all alone means nothing.  

 

-7:05 Pm  I am so tired of my life right now. 

(March 24, 2015) Day- 140

Today was hard. I ate a lot and it was too much.We went to the fittness room. I didn’t do a lot of work. It was the steping press type thing that hurts when I do it. I only can do 6 mins. That’s sucks.

   

• I started at 60 mins   

The wife and daughter came and I felt bad that I could do what I need to do to be happy. I felt like crying. 

    My beautiful daughter makes me happy and loved. Me and her drinking coffee together. 

  

• My wife and daughter working out together

(March 21, 2015) Day- 137

Today I have been lay down and haven’t been feeling too good. I don’t know why that my leg hurts. It could be me walking on it with out my cane. Well dad didn show up cud he changed the date again. I am so tired of him doing that and he seems he never happy to see me or spend time with me. I wish I could never need him and so I could leave him alone. 

 Anyway, my leg been hurting and need a some rest. I have been craving food and it sucks that I just want to alway want to eat. I’m so unhappy and depressed. It just won’t go away. I hate this. Here a photos of how my foot been looking for past few days. 

  

(March 17, 2015) Day- 133

I have done a lot today.
My wife woke up not feeling to well, so I took care of our 11 yr old. Made her breakfast and all and just relaxed for an hour cus she had time. When, time to go I took her to the bus stop and waited for the bus to come then went back in.

I set up home work when she gets home and when, she came home. She was in a good mood. Walking to the bus hurt little but waking up today hurt bad. I hate waking up and feeling my swollen foot.

 She did the home work and we read together. It made me so happy and made me feel like I’m being a father.

(March 14, 2015) Day- 130

I did a lot today. I spent time with my dad and son. We to chipolata and they, had couple dog up front and the kids loved it. My baby-girl is always loved pets and Its a good thing.

I stopped at At&t to see about the phone but, wasn’t going to get one cus, I have t mobile. I had to give up my Lg G3 phone cus, I hate when my phone dies too fast. Like, I have a phone that last not die on me when, I need it. Its not as bad as the HTC One. That died only for 4 Hours use.

Daad likes walking around when, we go out and I missing doing it too. My Broken leg sucks. To me it’s still broken even, its healing. I still can’t do things like, I want too.  We had to do our monthly shopping today and we did do it but, it took few trips. My dad took us the first time.

We had to wait for someone to come and buy my Broken HTC One that, got broken when, I got hit. He did came and we went to Mc d’s and it took a while but, got their like 30 mins and it was only like 0.5 mile. I feel bad about it.

I ate way more then,  I should. I feel so ashamed of my self. I ate a Big Mac large fries and a sweet tea. I also had a  frappe caramel not, just one but two. My wife couldn’t finish her so, I didn’t want to waste money so, I drank her’s too. I feel so bad. Grrrrrrrr

We went back to Giant Foods so, we could get more stuff and got what we needed. I carried two bag while, the other were carried by the rest of the family.

  It took like 40 mins to get back home and it sucks. it felt like it. I just had to change into something better and then take a shower. It sucked and Im glad, I am better now. Another day of my boring life.

(March 11, 2015) Day- 127

I Have been doing a lot during these two days.
I had to walk a mI le to the bus stop so, I could go get some glasses with the family.
My wife was so nice that, She walked with me to the bus stop and back. I makes me feel loved when she does.
My legs on my broken bone hurt when, I was almost home. It felt like my bones had rust in them and I couldn’t walk. 

(March 8, 2015) Day- 124

 

6:02Pm

I just bent down to look for something and it felt really bad and like it was splitting apart. What the going on. I can’t stand it.

(March 7, 2015) Day- 123

 

2:02Pm

I just got out of bath and feel little better and shaved. My leg was really red. I must have used very hot water.

(March 5, 2015) Day- 121

 

11:39Pm

I have been mostly watching
Chuck. Mostly all day and playing last croft on my Xbox 360 slim. My knee been hurting bad. It really hurts when I get up and walk. Man, it feel not better then yesterday.
It really snowed today and man, I miss the sun being