2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me. Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog I have been […]

2Years- 2Months- 12Days (804 Days)

Ok, I know I haven’t writing in my blog for a long while. I have been fighting with my bipolar depression and been trying different meds but, I haven’t found the one that is working with me. Anyway, not talking about my bipolar. <– Click the link to see my Bipolar Blog I have been […]

(Feb. 27 2015) Day 115

(Morning)

I really hate waking up feeling like this.

I didn't get much sleep, I went to sleep around 4am got up at 8:30am. I hate my whole leg and knee really hurting Its so stops my sleep. With my whole knee thing, It itches in the bone. I can't scratch it. AHHHHHH.

I need to wear a compression sock like, all time so, it feels better. I hate that, this broken foot really stopping me from doing this in my life. I need to give my foot a rest. Its just pain the in butt. I will write more later.

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(After-Noon)

I did a lot of walking today.

Walked like, more then a mile cus, i can feel it in my body, I truly dont want to walk. I had to walk down 3 sets of stairs and walk to the main office of our apartment. Walking to the office and back was a lot of work and then I when back up the 3 sets of stairs. I had like 20mins or so to get my daughter from the bus. 

She so sweet, she blew me a kiss when she saw me from the the window when the bus pulling up and gave me one when she got out. Then went back up the stairs again.

Now that's would be 6x4=24 sets of stairs but, I wasn't done. We ate before we left to go somewhere. Anyway, walking up the stairs hurt. 

(Night)

We went to Wal-mart by the area I got hit.Wife had few things to do their and I went for the ride. Got home and that's would be the last time of the night going up the stairs. Now that would make it, 6x6=36. I did 36 sets of stairs and when I got to the top. I truly didn't want to walk no more. That hurt, my knee hurt really bad and I couldn't stand it and I needed meds and sit down for a while. 

(Feb. 4th, 2015) Day- 92

Its only 20 mins until, it's midnight and a new day. I having so much pain in my foot that I just with I could cut off my foot and be done with it. I hate every time I take a step. My whole foot and ankle hurt and I don't want to really move.. I have been in bed rest and going to the kitchen or bathroom even its 5 feet it's in great pain. I really think something. Really wrong with my foot. I know why my ankle cus the main brake when the dumb ass lady hit me and I believe she wasn't even looking. I was almost in the half way in the street when she it me. That bitch. I am tired of feeling my foot being swollen or ugly dark looking. I am always need to take pain pills. I am getting lazy cus, taking a shower is pain in the ass. I am only taking baths and I did shower here and their but it's hard. I forgot the last time I took a bath. Let me check on my app.

It was 2 days ago and I need it but I so not in the work to do it. I need my wheel chair or someone to help me out cus I am not strong to stand and get my self out while not to slip. I hate my self right now cus, I am always in need for someone to take care of me or do something. I would get though this with out my wonderful wife.
She has done so much that I made me grow closer to her. She had to wash me when I couldn't and get me out then dress me when it was just start of my journey of this hard ship. I wish I could do something that would take her breath away to show her that I love her. If I need to write more, it will be on a new day when it's only 10 mins let till, it's tomorrow.

(Jan. 28, 2015) Day- 85

I'm home from Physical therapy. I did my leg and foot exercise. It took me a while to get home and I was home around 8pm. When I was leaving one of their physician assistant.. He really nice.
What I did today was, took my baby girl to the bus and picked her up and did some house cleaning, repotted my plants. Watched lost girl with my wife before she went to her dentist for get her tooth pulled. I know her mouth hurts and I hope she feels better soon.
Here my feet been looking lately.

Almost their

I can stand up and walk for a bit till my feet start to hurt.

(Dec. 17, 2014) -Day 43

Morning- 2:59Am

I am just laying in bed and can't sleep. I'm hot but lately I been liking it very cold.
My leg hurts and I took some meds for it. Hope it kicks in soon.
I hope it's nice out not raining or cloudy. I'm craving for the sun. I'm not sure.

(Dec. 5th, 2014) -Day 31

Little about yesterday~

I was do not in a good mood. My leg/foot really hurt. I mean I can feel the pain and feels like to pop. My while foot ache in pain. It stills swells up. Why and for How much long. Where the broken bones in My leg hurt too.
I need too sue her for me going though all this pain. I even cried 2 or 3 times yesterday and a lot day before. I have painful flashbacks the pain.
I'm so depressed and feels less then I am. I feel not a man cus, I can't fyi my manly things like, helping out in the house. Things hey too hard for me. I also feel less then a man cus I am a hsp. I feel more and dad said, "you know he weak to pain" that broke My heart and it was so cold.
I'm dealing with hot flashes and chill's.

(Nov. 4, 2014) Day 1 – Hit By Car

Being Hit: 

I was just walking back to the bus stop. I was heading home and chatting with a new friend. ( I know it was wrong to talk on the phone and walk across the street) I waited for the cars to go by me from the left that coming from behind me. Then I looked to the left and saw the cars not moving and started walking and I watch the cars from the right coming in. I got hit out of no where. I saw it all it happen and I saw the color of the Suv. It was silver and then I was the shape of the car then, I was on the street. I was scared. I moved my leg and it was under my butt. it was floppy and wobbly in my hand. The driver asked if, I am ok and I said ya and I was in shock and scared. she acted like she was shocked that, she even hit me. She wasn’t even looking. 

     I was looked for my phone and I saw it on the other side of the road broken . I was panicking cus, i wanted to call my wife. That’s all i was thinking. Then a cop showed up and then the people who brings you to the hospital. It was so painful .

    

In ER:

    When, I got to the ER at Northwest. They pulled me in and, I just sat their for a bit and I just cried. They put me in a room number (20) and all i wanted to talk to my wife and they took their time. They put

I did talk to my wife and I was feeling better but, my leg and foot hurt the same. I didn’t feel alone much anymore since, I was speaking with her. Later, they came and told that I need an X ray.

Getting X Ray’s:

   When, I got to the X ray room and I was scared. The guy lifted the bad, I was on to the X ray table and I need to pull my self on and he lifted my left leg up and put on. It hurt and It was like 1 hour or 1 hour 30 mins.

He had to put my leg up with my knee facing up. Thats hurt bad cus, I needed to put my foot flat. After that, I need to move to the left side and then the right side. so, they could see the whole leg. That really hurt. I cried during it. Then, the guy who brought me their, brought me back

    I’m back and called boo back. I was in pain with all the movement. I wait for a while then, had to wait for the doctor to come. He came and told me the, I have a broken leg.  Two nurses, came and put my foot and leg cast on. That’s hurt badly, She had to press my foot. I cried the whole time. It lasted like for 10 mins and then they put the rest on and made it too tight for 2 times and the 3rd time.

Dad and Paul showed up and waited for me to be ready to leave. That was like another hour and then, I went home in dad’s car.

  

Home:

  My Baby was down stairs ready. She helped me up to the bed. She helped me and made me feel way better on the inside but, my leg/foot hurt still. She baby me and I loved it. She is so sweet.