(Dec. 31, 2014) -Days 57

Today is the last day for the 2014.

I hope that, things will get better for me during this new year and i can be a better person and I can be happy as i am. Make me who, god wants me to be.

(Dec. 30, 2014) -Days 56

(Dec. 29, 2014) Day-55

(Dec. 25, 2014) - Day 51

(((((Christmas)))))

It was a nice day. From the family being here and to the weather. My wife got me two best things. 7 session of doctor who and my kirra Cologne.I love her so much.
    My princess, my daughter got a lot of dolls and a huge teddy bear. She loves it and my boy got scooter and he loves it. My brother came and dressed up as Santa and we chilled for a while. Dad and my brother cooked and the Turkey was good.
  
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(Dec. 24, 2014) - Day 50

I only had little sleep.. I went to sleep around 5am and woke up at around 10am. It's not a good weather today. It's raining and foggy. I am so stressed out today. I need to get out and eat some ice cream. I craving some sweet. My leg hurts and I am trying to do some light walking with my crotches. I will try to relax.

(Dec. 23,2014) - Day 49

  today wasn't so good.

(Dec. 22, 2014) - Day 48

I went to physical therapy at 11:30 and dad picked me up. Before I left, I took a pain med cus, I know it's going to hurt after.

(Dec. 20,2014) - Day 46

I went out today for Paul birthday party. We went to chucks n cheese but, I was mostly sitting down cus, my sank broken leg. I hate that I cant do anything. I can't even bring a cup of soda from the fountain to the table. I hate it and when Geoffrey came. We went to stand club and ate a pizza. That was nice and I strolled with him whole he got few things in a skooter.

I'm home now but, some what tired.. My foot looks all ugly but it's dry.

(Dec. 18, 2014) - Day 44( Physical Therapy Day 1)

I went to the pyscle thyerpy. Dad took me. I was their like for a hour and 15 mins. They did some exercising and a Electric thing that made my leg feel way better. I was laying their for 20 mins. It seemed like forever but, it wasn't. They want me back to the physical therapy on Monday. I hope I get a call.

(Dec. 17, 2014) -Day 43

Morning- 2:59Am

I am just laying in bed and can't sleep. I'm hot but lately I been liking it very cold.
My leg hurts and I took some meds for it. Hope it kicks in soon.
I hope it's nice out not raining or cloudy. I'm craving for the sun. I'm not sure.

(Dec. 15, 2014) - Day 41

I haven't been feeling good at all today. I was in a snappy mood when I woke up and it went away when, I went to sleep. My eyes burned cus, I got woken up before I needed too. During the sleep I didn't feel good at all. My leg hurt from the place on my knee and on my ankle. It was a painful and long it was the more painful it became. I got to a point where I was feeling weak. That's was around 9pm but, I took some good meds and I took two of, Oxycode HCL 5 mg. It did good work and I didn't wanted to waste it cus, I would only get 40 count of pills and I close to 30 count now. So, I need to taKe it when I deeply need it and night time.
The wife did a lot work past few days while I was mostly sleeping so, I cleaned up the house for her so, she won't have too while I was in a ok mood. I hope she feels loved when she wakes up. Going to get some rest.

(Dec. 14,2014) - Day 40

Today I been feeling pain and mostly on bed rest Today. I been eating a lot today. I feel its stress. I still want more and I feel bad.

(Dec. 12th, 2014) -Day 38

 I mostly been sleeping. Ran out of pain meds and it hurts. I hope, I can get some soon.

(Dec. 10th, 2014) -Day 36

I'm still up at 1:27pm.
I can't sleep and in pain. Not as bad but, it's building. I do hungry for protin. I was going to cook a hamburgers for me and Janice but, only one. I going to give it to her.

   She was nice and made me some tuna that, took care of the protin hunger.

(Dec. 9th, 2014) -Day 35

I wen't out today with the family. Even it was for just little food shopping. Went to giant.
I glad that, I went out. I needed it. I hate being locked in.
When we are leaving. I had to use my crutches and that, was hard work. I was scared of the floor in giant cus, it the kind that, i could slip easy from. I also hate hills cus, its not easy to walk on.
I had little fun and we took a cab up.

(Dec. 8th, 2014) -Day 34

I am just waiting for dad to come pick me up and we can head to the GBMC hospital. I am going to see my doctor and i think, i am getting my staples out. Thus going to hurt bad and i wish, i had my boo with me though it. 

  Dad came with me and meet my Dr. First a nurse came in to take out the staples out.

That took a while cus, it hurt when she did even, she was gentle.

I felt every pull and sharp pain.

I am weak to pain and Its nothing wrong with it.

So, when the Dr. came in. He showed me few things that, i have to do.

When i stood up on my foot the first time.

I cried cus, i felt scared and felt pain but, i think its more being scared.

I had to get a scale and more pain meds. 

Me and dad went to target and got it and went back home.   

(Dec. 7,2014) - Day 33

I was mostly home alone today. I did a lot of work. I cleaned jasmines room.. That's was a lot of work. I am glad I did something today and feel happy about it. That made me tired and my foot swelled up little bit. I put the plants out for a while so, they can get some sun.
Right now, I'm out at red run apartment office at a holiday dinner. It's nice and I had two plates and the first one filled up and I had a can of coke. Yummy. Jasmine and Boo had some food too.. Wife didn't feel too good but, hope she feels better later soon. I'm glad she feeling better now and Jasmine starts school tomorrow. I'm glad. Here some photos from today. Saw a dear and it was nice watching it.

(Dec. 5th, 2014) -Day 31

Little about yesterday~

I was do not in a good mood. My leg/foot really hurt. I mean I can feel the pain and feels like to pop. My while foot ache in pain. It stills swells up. Why and for How much long. Where the broken bones in My leg hurt too.
I need too sue her for me going though all this pain. I even cried 2 or 3 times yesterday and a lot day before. I have painful flashbacks the pain.
I'm so depressed and feels less then I am. I feel not a man cus, I can't fyi my manly things like, helping out in the house. Things hey too hard for me. I also feel less then a man cus I am a hsp. I feel more and dad said, "you know he weak to pain" that broke My heart and it was so cold.
I'm dealing with hot flashes and chill's.

(Dec. 4th, 2014) - Month 1/Day 30th

It's 12:33am and I am so stressed out. I am hurt by dad. He just don't care. He says he does but, I don't think so.

He does things for me like in forcing him or it's a job. He Don't care if I got hit. I could have died and I just see The same old him. I don't feel loved by him. Last time I really spent time with him was on the 15th of last month. He just doesn't care and It really breaks my heart. He Don't ask how I'm really feeling.
  If He did, he would ask me how you feeling today or want to see me if He care about me.

Im so stressed out that I getting headaches. Been all day and trying coffee yup cut in down. No luck yet.

(Dec. 3, 2014)- Day 29th

Well, I am in bed and it's 2:38Am.
It started yesterday when, I was taking a bath. I started to having very painful flashbacks of being hit and the treatment at NorthWest hospital, me slipping 3 times. I cried ugly and very heavy till, my face hurt from holding in the tears and making no sound in the bath tube.
  I have been crying and having flashbacks in and out from the time I was in the bathtub. I hate this flashbacks.

(Nov. 5th, 2014) -Day: 2

Went to GBMC. They X ray my foot and said, I might have broke a toe. I did some x rays in the room. They were so much nicer then NorthWest. I was in pain and It hurt and I couldn't wait to get it over. I wanted to feel better like, wake up and it never happened. 

     They took a xray of my foot and that, really hurt cus, they had to put it in a way that, it really hurt. They wanted it like flat down and i couldn't even, put my foot down on the ground. I am glad that, i couldn't cus of the cast. Dad took me their but, he was mostly sitting their like he didn't care that, I got hurt or i want like bothering him that, i need some help from a doctor. Wow, I feel loved. I am glad, that i have my wife. 

   When, I got home. The elvader didn't work and I had to clim up 4 stair's and thaat mean's, 2 sets for each floor and, my boo helped me up. I did most of them by sliding 

ding my but up and whe, it got to the last floor, she picked me up and put my arm around her and helped me up. I was so happy that, i was in bed.

(Nov. 4, 2014) Day 1 – Hit By Car

Being Hit: 

I was just walking back to the bus stop. I was heading home and chatting with a new friend. ( I know it was wrong to talk on the phone and walk across the street) I waited for the cars to go by me from the left that coming from behind me. Then I looked to the left and saw the cars not moving and started walking and I watch the cars from the right coming in. I got hit out of no where. I saw it all it happen and I saw the color of the Suv. It was silver and then I was the shape of the car then, I was on the street. I was scared. I moved my leg and it was under my butt. it was floppy and wobbly in my hand. The driver asked if, I am ok and I said ya and I was in shock and scared. she acted like she was shocked that, she even hit me. She wasn’t even looking. 

     I was looked for my phone and I saw it on the other side of the road broken . I was panicking cus, i wanted to call my wife. That’s all i was thinking. Then a cop showed up and then the people who brings you to the hospital. It was so painful .

    

In ER:

    When, I got to the ER at Northwest. They pulled me in and, I just sat their for a bit and I just cried. They put me in a room number (20) and all i wanted to talk to my wife and they took their time. They put

I did talk to my wife and I was feeling better but, my leg and foot hurt the same. I didn’t feel alone much anymore since, I was speaking with her. Later, they came and told that I need an X ray.

Getting X Ray’s:

   When, I got to the X ray room and I was scared. The guy lifted the bad, I was on to the X ray table and I need to pull my self on and he lifted my left leg up and put on. It hurt and It was like 1 hour or 1 hour 30 mins.

He had to put my leg up with my knee facing up. Thats hurt bad cus, I needed to put my foot flat. After that, I need to move to the left side and then the right side. so, they could see the whole leg. That really hurt. I cried during it. Then, the guy who brought me their, brought me back

    I’m back and called boo back. I was in pain with all the movement. I wait for a while then, had to wait for the doctor to come. He came and told me the, I have a broken leg.  Two nurses, came and put my foot and leg cast on. That’s hurt badly, She had to press my foot. I cried the whole time. It lasted like for 10 mins and then they put the rest on and made it too tight for 2 times and the 3rd time.

Dad and Paul showed up and waited for me to be ready to leave. That was like another hour and then, I went home in dad’s car.

  

Home:

  My Baby was down stairs ready. She helped me up to the bed. She helped me and made me feel way better on the inside but, my leg/foot hurt still. She baby me and I loved it. She is so sweet.